Saturday, May 05, 2012

202 day until I hit, I have things to do!

It really seems like yesterday that I graduated college and moved to Florida, but it was actually been over 15 or 16 years.  In my mind, I feel like I am still 20, okay maybe 30.  I am SO not ready to be 40!  We've heard the jokes....

At 40, your idea of weight lifting is standing up.
At 40, you sing along with the elevator music.
At 40, every time you suck in your gut, your ankles swell.
You know your 40 when...Men with comb-overs are starting to seem attractive.

Now don't get wrong, I love my life, and am very happy in general, but the number 40 seems old.  Heck, I remember my parents turning 40! I thought they were so uncool, never in fashion, out of shape and didn't understand our world.  And now that seems to be me!?!

I know the old saying, "40 is only a number"....bullshit.  It's more than a number in my mind. A number I am not ready for yet!!  It means no more babies, more wrinkles, slowing down of the brain, more worrying about retirement, my body not doing what it used to do, etc.  (Yes, I am totally pessimistic).

I also know there is no turning back, so I have to face it and realize it's time to "grow old gracefully".  So for the next 200 days, I am going to try my hardest to change a few things so that when I DO hit 40 in November, I am ready for the next decade of my life.  I plan to really concentrate on eating healthier, getting back on an exercise regime, and most importantly being comfortable with who I am (even if that means a 40-year old middle aged woman, ha!)    It won't be easy and may even fail but I can atleast know that I tried, and that's something I am willing to do!